sadness

Well this is my first journal....Just for you to be warned I am not going to limit myself whatsoever in what I write. If I offend you I really don't care because then you shouldn't be reading this. Well today I should be studying for my finals but I'm really sad right now. My so called best friend is being a bitch. My dad is being a total ass. Today I remembered once again why I moved. I just need to get some things off my chest. Friends suck......well maybe just my friends. I don't know I think its because I have never been able to feel comfortable anywhere because where ever I go I'm different. I don't fit in ANYWHERE!!!! People are so fuckin racist it's not even funny!!! Sometimes I just hate people. People hurt one another so much it's sad. As of right now the only person I can truly count on is my mom. I'm just really sad right now!!!!! I'm just trying to find my place in this fuckin world. Fuck, I miss singing so much. Just thinking about it makes me want to cry. Singing used to be pure but once again two people had to ruin that too. I may be able to slowly forgive those people but I will never forget. I will never be the same. Singing is no longer pure, it will be tainted forever. Maybe that is why I've been so sad lately. There is this void in my life that only singing could fulfill but now I don't know what to think. My life is just so screwed up right now. Well I don't want to write anymore because this isn't helping as much as I thought it would.